Friday Confessions

I confess...

I'm so behind on many things and it's driving me a little batty.

I confess...

Any computer time usually only involves being able to use the mouse, I have emails to respond to (Steph - I will get back to you on the carseat!), comments, blog posts I wish I had the time to write.

I confess...

For real, am at a total low place with my "friends".  As Baby B is 24 days old today and they still haven't met her.  It saddens me the excuse of being too busy being used.  And what I thought was true friendship makes me second guess.

I confess...

We had Baby B's 3 wk check and she still isn't back up to birth weight.  It's frustrating with me breastfeeding that her older sister A could pack on the weight like no other and I can't get hers back up.  So, we are having lots of 1 on 1 time and more nursing sessions through the day.  I hope that at next weeks weight check she shows a good gain.

I confess...

Whoever said it gets easier less worrisome for parents each child must be mistaken.  I feel like I had very minimum concerns when Emma was a newborn and didn't stress/have anxiety like I do have with A & B.

I confess...

I need to figure out a better daily routine.  I guess it's a good day if we are all dressed, me showered and dressed, fed and the house cleaned up by the end of the day.

I confess...

I need to do something for my soul, it's feeling a little empty right now.  I want to hear that music speak to me, be creative, get lost in a book, do something artsy with my girls', make time for house decor projects and making gifts for our loved ones for Christmas.


*I really really feel a little better getting all of this out there! Click on the button above and check out Mamarazzi's confessions along with all of the other people confessing today.

Friday Confessions

I confess... the oldest hasn't even been in school for 1 week, and as of yesterday the youngest has a runny nose and is sneezing.

I confess... For the past week I haven't been able to sleep in our bed at all.  I'm now sleeping on the recliner as the hip/pelvic pain is too severe, not worth it to even try laying down.  I miss my bed so much!

I confess... Between 1-3am, I normally wake up wide awake.  Last night I actually slept all night, so thought for sure tonight would be the same, except like mentioned above youngest is not feeling well, so I keep hearing her toss/turn/moan through the monitor and her Leap Frog dog must be near her b/c I keep hearing "ruff ruffing" noises and "Good Night Little Monkey".

I confess...the oldest is going to be a pleasure later today I'm sure with her interrupted sleep.

I confess...I can just hear the meltdowns coming my way later today.

I confess... The weather today dropped down to the 60's and I get to finally put the girls in some of their new wardrobe.

I confess... Fall is my favorite time of the year!

Friday Confessions

I confess...that last night I decided to get up when the Hubs does for work, so I could take a shower and eat breakfast in quiet for at most 30-45 mins before the girls' normal wake up time.

No sooner did I get done making the bed and picking out my clothes and the youngest was up.

Plan for quiet time without kids = EPIC FAIL.

I confess...I'm feeling like an 80 year old woman during the night when it comes time to flip over to my other side.

It's slow moving from side to back then side (as I don't want that sharp uterus pain in the side and other times it feels like my hips could just pop out of their sockets), while bringing the pillow in between my legs along for the flip and making sure the belly wedge is situated before settling back into my pillow to go back to sleep.

I confess...I should really just record myself saying the same 5 sayings, as I'm feeling like a broken record with the oldest this week.

I confess...I'm glad she's sleeping over at Mimi's tonight, I'm at my wit's end of her not listening, plus add in the normal talking back/sassy-ness and whining/crying over nothing  this week.

I confess...there is seriously nothing better to watch then when the girls' are playing together.

They are constantly chasing one another, laughing like crazies, and sitting beside one another during snacks etc.

I love watching their bond and can't wait to see what will come once the 3rd Musketeer is added. T-R-O-U-B-L-E I'm sure!!! 


I confess...I'm making a quilt for Brynlee.

Prior to this endeavor burp rags has been the extent of my sewing.

It's coming along really well and can't wait to share my progress over the weekend.

I confess...I had my 2 hr glucose test this week and the latest they told me I'd hear back from them if I failed was yesterday.

I received no phone call.

I can't believe I don't have Gestational Diabetes this time around, as I had it with Emma & Avalynn.

I confess...Both girls' were big and they induced me with both, within the 39th week.

I really do NOT want to go over my due date, especially since the Emma's bday is 5 days after my due date.

Plus I'm afraid of having a 10 lb baby.

I confess...I finally looked into the Pinterest app, and am so bummed that it's only for the iPhone.

Seriously, why does iPhone get everything first, Android phones are more and more and very popular too.


*Click on the button above to go visit everyone else's confessions for the week!*  Hope you have a great Friday, start to the weekend! 

Friday Confessions

I confess...I was planning on sitting down all day to get this typed, and am now left with only 2 + hours to spare.

I confess...that I was extremely grumpy this morning, when I heard Miss A fussing at 5:30!!!  Seriously, this girl is putting me through the ringer with getting up so early and I'm lucky if her naps last an hour!

I confess...I really hope in a few years she flips her ways and sleeps a lot more.

I confess...It was one of those days where I couldn't even shut myself in the bathroom or in my room for a couple minutes as her whining and crying just continued wherever I went.

I confess...I've started sewing up burp cloths for Baby B and flannel is a curse!!!  The machine and flannel seriously, have a hate relationship, which in turns makes me want to throw away both.

I confess...I have 7 done and 3 1/2 more to finish, once I finally got in my sewing groove I ran out of thread.

I confess...I really wish the weather would pick how it wants to be.  1 week we are in scorching/extreme humid temps which means the air is on and any and all fans that I can find.  The next week temps drop and we have wonderful breezes which means windows can be opened and 1/2 the fans can be run - remember I'm pregnant.  :o)

I confess...I tried 2 new recipes this week and both are winners!  Will be sharing them soon.

I confess...I planned on posting some projects we've been working on around here this week, and somehow every day just got away from me.

I confess...that Emma is obsessed with doing jumping jacks and Avalynn does her own version of them, which just so happens to be the cutest/most adorable/funniest thing to watch.

I confess...frequent bathroom trips have seriously hit an all new meaning!  1/2 of those times I'm literally dashing to the bathroom, it just hits from no where.

Friday Confessions

FRIDAY has come around again and with it comes time for confessing... *Click on the button above to head over to Mamarazzi's blog and check out the link-up of other bloggers confessions*

I confess... I had a check-up with the baby/preg. Dr and he made me feel oh SO wonderful by the time I had left.  I had my 1st gain of the pregnancy ,25 wks along, only a couple lbs and was told how I need to watch it, blah blah blah.  Then my uterus was measuring big.  My BP was OK.  My early glucose tests were OK.  And  then as we are walking out of the room he begins to tell me what creams I can use for my face, um - I have rosacea - so unless I'm on my antibiotic pill nothing helps me, this isn't my 1st rodeo in being pregnant, and I know that I can't take my meds, so therefore I just deal with it.

I confess...he had me schedule at my appts through the end and I gladly avoided being scheduled with him and another Dr in that practice.

I confess...he also told me to schedule out 1 week past my due date.  Which shocked me, they induced me with my oldest on my due date and my youngest a week early.  I have big babies oldest = 8lbs 14ozs and youngest = 9lbs 5.2ozs.  When I asked about being induced with this one he said only if I have gestational diabetes again.

I confess...I'm not going to lie, part of me wishes I have it, b/c I do NOT want to be waiting a week after my due date and be delivering an 11 lb baby!

I confess...I had the best time with the Hubs during his "weekend" this past week.  We got so much stuff done around the house/outside, plus spent tons of quality time as a family.  I love weekends like that.

I confess...the youngest was on a sleep strike yesterday, which made the day no fun for me.  Let's hope today is better.

I confess...One of the best things to watch is the girls' playing together, their friendship grows more and more each week and I love seeing that bond.

I confess...the Hubs grandparents just celebrated their 60th wedding anniversary this past Tuesday and I hope that the Hubs and I get to see that #, living that long I mean.

Friday Confessions

It's FRIDAY, that wonderful day where we get to confess and let it all out.  Click on the button above to hop over to Mamarazzi's blog and the link-up everyone's confessions.

I confess...I know I've talked about the website domain stuff a couple times over the past week, and this will be the LAST time!  I realized yesterday that my very original web address using blogspot.com, is now being used by a guy named Ted to talk about Dell stuff, yeah doesn't make sense as it's my actual name I used!  Thank you Ted!   And my .com address that got taken away is now some site about adult chat in Japan, none of it makes sense when you switch it over to translate to English.  Thank you to whoever took that one too.  I feel like I have this sign on websites I've created for strange weird men to take them - pisses me off!

I confess...Clover is the curse of my flower beds.  Last month when the Hubs and I weeded our 4 flower beds, we sprinkled some stuff to help "prevent" weeds - yeah I think instead it must have been made to only grow clover, which there was pretty much none previously.  It's been a real PITA, I finally am left with only about a 4x4 section to finish up in the next day or two.

I confess...I'm I've been part of an on-line group since my oldest was 3 months old, so for 4+ years, there are about 30 of us in total and they are some of the most amazing women.  About 1/2 of them are all meeting in Chicago this weekend, our one mom has actually flown over from Australia for a couple weeks to tour the whole US, too.  I'm sad we aren't able to go because of  DH's work schedule plus $.   I have been lucky enough to meet 3 of them over the years though.  I hope the next time one of these trips are planned we will be able to go.

I confess...I'm very thankful that DH finally got a job and is working.  I really hate that his work weeks are Thurs-Sun.  I'm finding myself a little down on the weekends.  And we are a one vehicle family, so it's not like I can just take the girls around to do stuff, unless our parents pick the 3 of us up, we're stuck at home.  Us only having one vehicle has never bothered me before, I think most of all I'm just missing spending our weekends at his grandparents pool.

I confess...this is the week where I will tell my oldest not to do something and she turns right around and does it.  Talk about frustrating.

I confess...I'm completely addicted to Bravo's Real Housewives shows.  Am so sad the OC one has ended already!

Friday Confessions

It’s that time of the week again, you know you want to get it all out there…

I confess…the Hubs is amazing in my eyes.  He ended up having an 18 1/2 hr work day, getting home past 1 am, got less than 4 hrs of sleep and is off to work for the day without so much as a complaint really. 

I confess…I could live off of only these foods lately: any kind of chicken dish and if there is leftover chicken it goes right into chicken salad, pickled eggs, cinnamon applesauce, whole wheat bagels with strawberry cream cheese, mini white powdered donuts, sweet potato fries, and lastly tomato & basil wheat thins, frozen dove dark chocolates, Martin's BBQ popcorn, and nuts - pistachio's/peanuts/sunflower seeds. 

I confess…I feel at a loss lately on how to parent my 4 year old, who honestly acts like she’s 14 (over the weekend I had 2 people say how her moods/emotions are like a teenager)!  We’ve entered a whole new phase of meltdowns over the littlest things.  And a very down attitude about doing things or rather that she’ll never be able to do such and such (things she’s too young for or just hasn’t tried/learned yet).

I confess…the down attitude about doing anything is what concerns me the most.  One thing I want my girls’ to grow up knowing about themselves is that they can do anything they want to, they are beautiful and smart, I want them to have confidence in themselves, their skills, and if they don’t know how to do something, they will set about to learn.  Yes I know their will be failures along they way, but in the end I know that they can succeed in anything they want to.

I confess…I hope Miss A is feeling better, she spiked a temp after nap yesterday and basically just wanted to snuggle all night, even though I must say the snuggle’s were so nice!

I confess…over the long weekend we went to the pool and when getting my new maternity swim suit I hadn’t really thought about where the straps were.  Lesson learned to not buy a suit that doesn’t have straps that go the same as bra straps.  I got burned and needless the say today is the 1st day I’m not in pain.

I confess...I'm afraid I really screwed up my blog, when my domain expired I made a blogspot address until I had the time to sit down and figure everything out and now many of my links are coming up with error's.  Anyone have experience with this or suggestions?  It says it takes up to 3 days, so am hoping all will go back to normal at the end of those 3 days.

Friday Confessions

It's Friday again, which means confessing time -  it always feel good to confess!

I confess...I know I'm pregnant by all of the Food pictures and recipes I pin on pinterest lately.  Everything just looks and sounds so yummy!

I confess...I have a problem.  I have this mindless thing I do, I tap my fingers or toes in an arch shape and will count in 3's or 5's.  I never count above 100, and will just automatically start back over at 1.  I never realize I'm doing it until after I've cycled through to 100 once or twice.  The Hubs' will look over at me sometimes and see I'm tapping something and will just start counting aloud, making me realize that I'm doing it.  I haven't always done this, it's just come to light in the past couple years.  It's one of my many quirks.

I confess...this week has quickly gone down hill and feels like the week that won't end.  My wonderful amazing Gramma - has been battling cancer for almost 5 years.  She was admitted in the hospital Saturday because she's been in severe pain.  The news has come back from her tests this week and it isn't good, the cancer has spread extensively throughout her.  She's getting a stent put in one of her kidney's today, to alleviate some pain she's in.  Hospice has been called and is delivering a medical bed and other things to her house this weekend.  She just wants to go home.

I confess...It's extremely hard to be going through all of this.  She and I share a birthday.  When my parents split she became my little sister and I's 2nd home.  It's been so great to see her sing the same songs and say the same nursery rhymes to my girls' as she did with me growing up.

I confess...the night I found out the news I was crying and Emma asked me what was wrong.  I told her that Gramma was sick and wasn't going to get better.  Emma asked me if it was because she didn't take her medicine.  It brought a good chuckle out of me and I explained to her that no medicine could be taken, that she was sick on the inside.

I confess...The Hubs and I have decided regardless what we are having, only 3 1/2 more days until we find out, we will be using my Gramma's middle name Lee.

I confess...I'm so glad to have an amazing extended family who is all there for each other during this time and I have the bestest friends who are here for me during this time.

I confess...Miss A  knows exactly what I need and has been showering me with extra hugs and kisses the past couple days.

I confess...I didn't plan on getting all of this out today, but am glad, as I feel a little better.

Friday Confessions

I confess...I wish that Toaster Strudels came with more than 6 in a pack, that's enough for 3 breakfasts, and I'm loving the apple ones right now, the perfect amount of warm gooey sweetness.

I confess...this week has felt pretty long without the Hubs.

I confess...one of the things I'm most looking fwd to with him back is so he can carry Miss A, my little 28lb chunky monkey gets heavy carrying up and down all of our stairs.

I confess...he will be back in approx. 8 hours or so and I can NOT wait!

I confess...Miss A is quite stubborn on this whole walking thing, for the past two weekends she's taken a couple steps, but zilch-o walking during the week.  Then finally yesterday she actually walked around 75% of the day.  I hope she continues today.

I confess...I've been craving adult conversation like crazy by the end of this week and I apologize to all who had to deal with my gabbing.

I confess...I'm seriously addicted to Pinterest.  If you are not on it yet please join, and if you are/once you are please add me so we can share what we pin.  It's FREE!  If you want access right away, message me your email addy and I'll send you an invite, otherwise you just have to wait a couple days to get "approved".

I confess...I keep finding so many adorable baby things to make, can't wait to find out the gender so I can get to it already!

Friday Confessions

I confess…this has been the ultimate slowest week, Monday I thought was Tuesday, Tuesday I thought was Monday, and the rest of the week has just felt never ending.

I confess…pregnancy headaches are the worse!

I confess…I had my 14 week check-up on Wednesday.  Everything looks great, HB was in the 160’s.  Plus I had to do my early glucose test, if I don’t hear anything from the Dr’s by today then I passed which means I’ll have to take it again later.  I hope I passed.

I confess…I’m still in disbelief that this pregnancy is viable.  I’ve never had back to back successful pregnancies.  I keep waiting for something to wrong as it just seems to good to be true.

I confess…just for kicks and giggles I picked up the IntelliGender test on clearance at Target this week.  It says BOY!  Will be fun to see what the u/s says next month!

I confess…I’m so sick and tired of hearing about jealous extended family members and it all being put on my Gramma, who is not doing well, dealing with physical problems daily and having to downsize her home etc.

I confess…this is the last thing she should be concerned with.  She needs to concentrate on getting through day-to-day things and enjoying her family instead of petty jealousies. 

I confess…this weekend is my Besties baby shower and I can’t wait to give her, her diaper cake! 

I confess…next week the Hubs is on travel for his new job and I’m a little nervous about being by myself alone.  I’m used to him working long hours, but he at least always comes home and sleeps with me.  I do not like not sleeping with him.

Friday Confessions

I confess...I'm so anxious for Sunday's Army Wives.  I keep flipping between who I think it is that dies.  What's your opinion?

I confess...I'm really tired of half of our shows being on weird breaks and just being repeats.  What the heck, didn't we just have a big break with them over the holidays?

I confess...I'm rather annoyed with my face this pregnancy.  And supposedly your not supposed to use face wash with salicylic acid or benzoyl peroxide.  Yeah - just found that out a couple weeks ago, when did things change so much between this pregnancy and my youngest?

I confess...I've had a couple of my friends say they read that Witch Hazel is magic for your face.  I hope this is true for me, plan on picking some up tomorrow.

I confess...that when you ask people to be references for a job, they have a heads up that they'll be getting contacted, it'd be nice if they responded.

I confess...the Hubs got an email for the company he's interviewing with yesterday saying none of his references responded and they had 24 more hours to do so.

I confess...I'll be livid if for some reason he doesn't get the job because these people can't respond.

I confess...it's so easy, especially since the company does it all through e-mail!!!

I confess...I'm so excited for the weekend and the nicer weather.  Plan on digging in the flower beds and looking forward to some free Italian ice on Sunday!

Hope you all have a fantastic weekend!

Friday Confessions

I confess...that the posting juices aren't flowing fully yet, so have decided to join in some linky parties to get back in the posting groove.

I confess...that I really need to get back into my cleaning schedule, it's been weeks of everything being off and all just doesn't seem right in the world of ME.

I confess...I'm going to start making a daily schedule telling me what to do during what time frame to jump start my bum back into getting in a routine.

I confess...I haven't picked up my camera in almost a month.

I confess...this doesn't help me in completely my Project Life 2011 album if there are no pictures to document.

I confess...that in the past couple weeks I'm beginning to realize that the Hubs & I are really going to have out hands full with Miss A - she has the shortest-loudest little temper, throws those full out body on the floor legs kicking kind of tantrums, and she's only 13 months old.

I confess...that I'm only thinking BOY  for the little bean in my tummy.

I confess...that I hope the Hubs nails his interview on Monday.

I confess...we could really use some good "work" news for him, as the past 2 1/2 years of his work has sucked with major layoffs.

I confess...all will be better when he is working again.

I confess...I'm tired of living with this stress and ready to let it go.

I confess...these confessions have made me feel a lot better!!!