Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Day

It's always amazing to me how quickly October 15th seems to come upon me.  I have had 4 miscarriages, all in different times of the 1st trimester.  I always say no one knows what you're going through unless they've been there through it to, but sometimes you get those people that you don't really know who can really say some of the dumbest things that just hurt you and make you mad.  I always tell people who ask for advice when someone they know has lost a pregnancy or baby is to just be there and listen if the person wants to talk.  Do not say those classic phrases "It was meant to be", "At least you have xxx, this child already", drawing a blank on others.

In 1988, Ronald Regan stated that October would be Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month.  On October 15th, everyone is invited to light a candle @ 7pm for a personal loss or that of a friends, for an hours time.  The idea is that with the varying timezones there will be a continuous light across the United States/World.  This day has spread to Canada and across the World.

For more information check out www.october15th.com or http://pregnancyloss.info/

I will always remember you my 4 angel babies! In part of my healing process, I got the angel wings tattoo, which you can see on my right sidebar.  I feel like a part of each of them is with me all the time now after getting this. 

There is this beauitful song by Gerrit Hofsink called "Still".  Here are the lyrics: 

I've been waiting for you for such a long time
You're always on my mind
And I'm laying awake most of the night
Waiting to hold you tight
Now that I do, and look at you
MY heart is breaking, this can't be true

Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On Earth we never can, but in heaven we'll meet again

Close to my soul, close to my heart
Right from the start
Lost in time, lost in space
Can't wait to see your face

Now that I do, and look at you
MY heart is breaking, this can't be true

Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On Earth we never can, but in heaven we'll meet again

Sometimes I find myself wondering what to do
With this pain that I'm going through
But I know one day, God will take me away
And I'm coming home to you

And when I do, and look at you
My heart is healing, I know it's true

Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On Earth we never can, but in heaven we'll meet again
In heaven we'll meet again